Life works in mysterious ways

After a rocky week, I have finally come to rest. It was the biggest decision I have ever made until this day. I don´t know how people do these things, you know, take decisions that impacts their lives. I had to choose how my future would be and I just hope that I chose well.

So in the end I chose to stay at my current university. i hate my university I everything it stands. It´s hypocrite and two faced. But it´s the only university in my country that offers the career in journalism and I wouldn´t have it any other way. My biggest dream is to become a fashion journalist and for now, this is the only road that would lead me that way.

So I guess I can endure some years of pain and frustration before I get to the good and exiting part of my life. I don´t want the easy way and I want challenges before I reach my ultimate goal. That´s just the way it is.

Rejection

I've always feared rejection. All my life has been a roller coaster of emotions, disappointments and fears. I have lost so many opportunities, friends and possibilities because of my fear of rejection. The worst thing of this situation is that for the biggest part of my life I was clueless of this fear. I mean I knew something was going on, but I didn't know what it was.

I have been wondering why nothing ever happened to me and why opportunities slipped away from my hands. And now I know that I was the problem The fear was my problem. The only obstacle in front of me and stopping me was, actually, me.

And now, thankfully, I have the opportunity to conquer my fear of being rejected and for the first time in my life, to actually enjoy my life. I am finally able to destroy my fear and finally start living my life like it should've been for a long time now. And to finally be free and conquer anything I want. I won't lose any more opportunities and possibilities in my life.

From now on I will start living my life!