When it comes to it, i REFUSE to settle down.
I know it could be so easy and so comfortable to just stop fighting for a better and bigger future and just get married. To settle down and be supported by my husband. But, guess what? I do not want to depend on my husband or my family or anyone for that matter. I want to be independent emotionally, physically and economically. I want to be successful, to make my parents proud and show them that all the hard work they put on me wasn't wasted.
Life is hard. Decisions are hard. Staying on the right path is hard.
Yet, having to make the most difficult decisions will probably lead to the most rewarding experiences. I do believe that. Also, I believe I was put into this world to conquer big things. I want to be a writer. I want to be an editor. I want to travel the world and live in another country for a few years. I want to grow as a person and as a woman. I want to experience all the things the world has to offer me. But, most of all, I want to fight my demons, win that battle and learn who I am without them.
Realizing that I still have a couple of years of university and a few more studying my master or my specialization, terrifies me. Knowing that I want to do those last things outside my country, makes me want to crawl under my sheets and hide from the world. But I can´t do that. Not if I want to have a fulfilling life, to have a better future and give my future family the best things and opportunities that life can offer.
So please, stop asking me when I will get married or have kids. They are not coming anytime soon.
Okay, rant over.
