Shit, it's getting bad again...

I found the answer I needed the most. Nothing will get better until I discover myself. I need to be alone with myself for a while and try to find me. To find what I like, what I don't like, what I want, but mostly, what I believe and how to stand by it.

I really need this alone time because I am slowly destructing myself and everyone around me. I wish I knew how to stop it because I don't want to hurt everyone around me anymore. I don't care if I kill myself slowly, but it's a whole different thing to destroy people who care and love me.

Shit, it's getting bad again. The voices and self-destructing manners are running towards me and I don't know how to stop them. Maybe I don't want to stop them. I feel myself  being pulled away into the arms of darkness. It's a place I know very well and even though I know it's terrifying, I think that I deserve being pulled away.

It's been a difficult weekend and I really don't know how my week it's going to be. But one thing I know for sure, it's not going to be pretty.